Eyin Oju Olorun, Kai. What a year it's been. Many days I woke up still wishing it was all a bad dream... Just maybe it did not happen as it did? Then reality hit's - the grip on my heard, sick feeling Ito my tummy, catch my breath, throat tightens up, eyes cloudy with tears. I try really really really hard to look at it through Gods eyes, but often I fall short. I try to remember your sweet smile, your sense of humor, and then I look at pictures of happier times. I found my lost old iPhone today and was clearing it out found it stores deleted messages! And there were a whole bunch from you- in your happy "normal" cheerful voice. What a bitter sweet treasure. One minute I was smiling , the next, well... I miss you sis, a whole lot of us do